PTI today. It wasn't that bad at first, mummy saw my report book but didn't scold me. She talked to me nicely and said I had to work really hard and all that. I felt kinda disappointed that I let her down but yet she still didn't scold me. I could see that she didn't wanna give up on me so easily and believed in me, so I had this strong determination to really prove it to her(:
But after meeting with mrs kwok, I had to go see the VP and she totally dragged my morale down. Scolded me about almost everyth that I couldn't even be bothered to tell her the truth anymore. Huh. I doubt she'd even believe me anyway so I just sat there and kept quiet. She was really harsh and dismissed whatever reasoning I had so I couldn't control a few tears. I felt so demoralized and useless when she said things like that. I know I didn't put enough effort and I recognize that but it doesn't mean she had to start probing into my personal stuff like facebook and all that. That's my personal matter and had nothing to do with studies at all, it's not often that I even use my laptop anyway. But whatever, I'm currently in a 'don't wanna care about anyth' mood right now. All most people care about are about those numbers on the paper and from one exam, completely give up on you. No encouragement whatsoever, all you people can say is that I'm gonna be a failure if I don't work hard and even left me to fend for myself. Yeah thanks so much.

You lied through your teeth and for that, fuck your feelings

Hi.

Fought with sister again. I'm completely emotionless now. Actually i would have posted this on my public blog but sadly there are assholes out there who would claim i'm trying to seek attention.

Whatever, bitchez.

I FINALLY GOT THAT PINK STITCH TOY! ♥

Omg i've been wanting it for so damn long and i've finally got it! Thanks to Ahyi Novia and Chelsia :D Hahaha! I'm so happy! :D Anyway, dinner with the girls was awesome. Ate at New York New York and we had gigantic portions of food that we couldnt finish. Heh. Took lots of photos, its all up on facebook. And once again i was surprised with a birthday cake :D Hahaha! This is the best Sweet 16 birthday i could ever ask for(: A big thank you to everyone who has made my birthday the greatest ever. Love y'all!(:

The best way to kill the pain permanently is when you can't even feel at all. I need that.

I'm officially Sweet 16! (:
Hahah! Thanks for all the birthday calls, text messages, and facebook comments :D Really appreciate them all. And here's wishing a happy happy birthday to Kenneth, Katherine and Wei Nan. (: Hope you guys have a great year ahead :D
Anw, just had dinner with the family and they bought a beautiful heart-shaped blueberry cake for me(: Was kinda surprised that mum would actually order a cake with super loads of cream on it cuz usually she doesn't want us to eat such unhealthy stuff. Lolol. But anw, today was great, dinner was great. OH! And I got my official phone back too! :DDD Still had a few messages from the past though :/ Became rather upset when I read them. Ah well.

Oh but I know you hardly care.

After all the effort I've been putting in, trying to keep us strong, this is what I get. Just because I give in and put up with it doesn't mean you can just do it outright like that. I've got a limit alright. Make up your mind, who's more important? Your 'buddy' or me? Whether you read this or not, I don't care. But i can't take it anymore. You don't know how much I've had to go through and how much i've had to put up with. So what happened to all the sacrifices I've made just for you? It makes me feel that I've done that all for nothing. I can't keep going on like this, it's gotta stop. I'm not gonna deny the fact that I get jealous very easily. But I've warned you about that long before we got together yet you still chose to love me. As hard as it gets, I suppress my jealousy just so you won't feel restricted but now you throw this in my face? I can't tolerate it anymore. I have a limit. You know what I'm referring to. And if this isn't gonna stop, then I'll
declare our relationship as over.