PTI today. It wasn't that bad at first, mummy saw my report book but didn't scold me. She talked to me nicely and said I had to work really hard and all that. I felt kinda disappointed that I let her down but yet she still didn't scold me. I could see that she didn't wanna give up on me so easily and believed in me, so I had this strong determination to really prove it to her(:
But after meeting with mrs kwok, I had to go see the VP and she totally dragged my morale down. Scolded me about almost everyth that I couldn't even be bothered to tell her the truth anymore. Huh. I doubt she'd even believe me anyway so I just sat there and kept quiet. She was really harsh and dismissed whatever reasoning I had so I couldn't control a few tears. I felt so demoralized and useless when she said things like that. I know I didn't put enough effort and I recognize that but it doesn't mean she had to start probing into my personal stuff like facebook and all that. That's my personal matter and had nothing to do with studies at all, it's not often that I even use my laptop anyway. But whatever, I'm currently in a 'don't wanna care about anyth' mood right now. All most people care about are about those numbers on the paper and from one exam, completely give up on you. No encouragement whatsoever, all you people can say is that I'm gonna be a failure if I don't work hard and even left me to fend for myself. Yeah thanks so much.

You lied through your teeth and for that, fuck your feelings